Broken

Matthew 11:28 (NLT)

Jesus said: ‘Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.’”

Broken

There are times when I feel broken – battered and bruised from the battles of life, and broken inside. There are times when I cannot raise my voice to sing, even along with my favourite songs. I just crack up, break down, and tears begin to flow. And normally, I love singing. But in our brokenness, we cannot do even those things that we enjoy, or bring us joy; it seems that happiness highlights our hurts, rather than heal.

It matters not where the hurts have come from; it matters not how long ago they arrived. To the outside world, we seem to have it all together; we seem to be just fine. Now there’s a word – fine. I’m fine, thank you. What on earth does ‘fine’ mean? The weather can be fine, we can be fine, we can be given a fine! I’m fine thanks. Really?

Often, it means that you don’t really want to engage in conversation about how you really feel – that would just expose the hurt, it would just peel away the thinning veneer of normality that coats and covers up your real state of being, your brokenness. Often, it means that you are just about managing to keep it all together and to get through this moment, this hour, this day, without breaking down, bending from bearing the weight of your brokenness.

‘I’m fine’ is a cop out! You’re either on the good side of fine, and life is generally good; not everything is as it should be, but on the whole it’s good. Or, you’re on the not so good side of fine, and life is generally bad; not everything is terrible, but on the whole it’s pretty bad and you’re struggling. There’s no real middle ground – it’s like a switch, it’s either on or off. There’s no middle ground! You might find that the switch is actually smack bang in the middle, but the light is either on or off – there’s no middle, it can’t be half off or half on! It’s either one or the other!

It’s the same with: “how are you?” There’s no middle ground that is: “fine, thank you.” It’s just that you don’t want to talk about it – so we don’t know whether it’s good or bad, in reality. There’s no light that’s either on or off to show us the truth.

‘I’m fine’ hides the hurt, disguises the brokenness, distracts you from the reality. And it works. It’s part of the veneer, part of the coating that, however thin and flimsy, helps you keep it all together and to get through the day. Because to peel back that fragile veneer gives vent to the vulnerability of revealing that you are broken inside.

But whatever your brokenness, there is One who knows you through and through – the good and the bad, the brokenness and the bad feelings that you bear. Jesus. And He says to you today:

Jesus said: ‘Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.’”
Matthew 11:28 (NLT)

He is my comforter, He is my strength in times of trouble, and He is my healer. May He be yours today, too.

May we pray: Thank You, Lord, that know our brokenness; you know how we really feel when we say to people, ‘I’m fine!’ Lord, You know that I am weary, and that my burden is heavy. Thank You that You can take it from us. Please comfort us today; please strengthen us today; and please heal us today.  We ask this in the precious name of our Saviour, Christ Jesus; Amen.


If you’re struggling with brokenness right now, we would like to pray for you – please get in touch. Don’t feel as though you have to battle alone – Jesus wants to take hold of your burden, He wants to heal your brokenness and bring you back to life once more. May God Bless You.

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